Voice – where are you?!

Finding my voice is more challenging than I had anticipated. I set out on this blog writing journey to find it and let it shine. I thought for sure that God had impressed upon my heart to write about the ups and downs of my life so I can let others know they’re not alone in their struggles.

Don't try to figure out what other people want to hear from you; figure out what you have to say. It’s the one and only thing you have to offer.  - Barbara Kingsolver

Don’t try to figure out what other people want to hear from you; figure out what you have to say. It’s the one and only thing you have to offer. – Barbara Kingsolver

I read all these amazing blogs, and these women seem to write with such ease and grace. I feel like a songbird trying to belt out a tune and instead I croak like a frog! It’s somewhere in here – but it’s not coming out how I had planned.

I guess it goes back to letting go and letting God. I keep trying to take too much control of things and force them, when I need to step back, read my Bible, devotionals, and Al-Anon literature, absorb them and then let it flow…like stream of consciousness…like a journal…like now.

I had a conversation with my sponsor last night about control ( see, I am still on Step One – and that’s okay – even though I want to move forward- I am not really ready ); and, I think I can handle it all, like a superhero, and I just keep adding and adding more and more to my plate – lessening a lot of time to focus on self-care. I fill my life with business because, subconsciously, don’t feel like I’m worthy enough to spend my time on. Now, I know that intellectually I can and should spend time to reflect, recharge and regroup- but it’s the execution of it that presents the underlying problem.

My days are full, and for that, I am grateful. Yet, I need to manage my time more effectively and learn to make time every day to, reflect, recharge and regroup.

 

the 3 Rs

Just 3 Simple Steps , yet we all know that the airplane pilots tell the adults to do if in an emergency situation– put your mask on first so you can help your children ( because without us, they’re left floundering – figuratively and hopefully not literally). Well, every day might not be an emergency – but what do we do when faced with one? We have to lay that foundation so we can get stronger emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically. It’s okay to ask for that time, too. We need to reflect, recharge & regroup with God on a daily basis.

Take a walk or run in the beautiful outdoors – maybe spend some time with some 4-legged creatures.

Read your Bible, engage in your bible studies or absorb other spiritually encouraging writings.

Watch a funny TV show (our family favorite is “The Big Bang Theory” – it never fails to get us rolling!!)

Talk with a mentor.

Grab coffee with a friend or go out on a date with your spouse.

I recall my pastor saying that we actually need to focus on our health so we are “prepared to do the work that God has planned for us.”

Wise words…

A house requires a solid foundation on which to sit – before it gets all the beautifiers and windows and in which to let the light shine. Well, we need the same, except we need to allow the light in so we can let it shine out – that’s our role here on earth.

I need to re-set my foundation. It’s not going to be perfect, but it’s going to be what I need to stay sane on a daily basis. And the guilt? I’m not going to let that little gremlin take up lifetime residency – I’m kickin’ him out (even if it‘s piece by piece!) – Ha!

It’s in there, I know it is… ( I just have to know where to look for it)

 

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18 thoughts on “Voice – where are you?!

  1. “I need to re-set my foundation. It’s not going to be perfect, but it’s going to be what I need to stay sane on a daily basis. And the guilt? I’m not going to let that little gremlin take up lifetime residency – I’m kickin’ him out (even if it‘s piece by piece!) – Ha!” This is awesome! You go girl!

  2. I can completely relate to you! I have a hard time letting go of control and carry a ton of guilt along with me at all times. Good for you for kicking “that little gremlin” out :)! I just took a couple of weeks off of blogging just to regroup and focus on my family. It is hard when you really want to help others but aren’t completely sure where to go with it. I think you are doing a fantastic job! Keep it up and you will definitely help many others!

  3. I love this blog, such an honest response to all the emotions we get caught up in. and “three simple steps ” to stay in God’s word. Reflect, recharge and regroup with God on a Daily basis.” Amen.

  4. You definitely do belt out a tune, and a beautiful one at that. 🙂 I love the analogy you use of having to reset our foundation. And those gremlins of guilt? I know how persistent they can be. Thank you for putting a picture to them. Now I am picturing myself kicking them out of my thoughts. They’re green and ugly with a malicious frown. Anyway, thank you for these thoughts today. And be gentle with yourself. You are definitely worthy of spending time to take care of YOU.

  5. Your honesty is inspiring. Thank you for sharing your thoughts today. I enjoy Bible studies, too. Also, enjoy laughing and feeling all the ripples of happiness. 🙂 God is so good to give us such wonderful things to enjoy.

  6. First of all, what a great name for your blog! Looking for the good, or the “shine” as you call it, in every day. I think it is a very common feeling to read other peoples’ writing and feel inadequate. I know I do! But, I am so glad that didn’t stop you from writing today! 🙂

    • Oh, wow! Thank you for your heart-lifting words! God bless you, too ((♡)) You’ve done one of the hardest things- you started! You will find your words…..He will help you (just when I feel I have nothing to write , I find that when I just start the act of writing, something eventually reveals itself)

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